Life is challenging and it seems that every day is bringing me more and more to worry about. Everyone around me is hurting and the truth is; it's starting to get to me. I have so many things that I have to be careful about. I am not trying to get away with anything, be decietful or run anyone elses life. I just want to be able to live and find enjoyment in my life.
It's ironic that for the first time in my life I truely want to live! I've spent the majority of my life wanting to die or just fade away, something to make the pain stop.
Now I'm in a place where my top two relationships are so wonderful I cannot express it in words. Jesus and my beautiful wife Penny, they are so very important to me and I couldn't ask for a better relationship with either of them. I am blessed, I am happy. But things keep coming up that would seek to tear down my relationships and my joy of life.
However, I've made a determination: no matter what my circumstances, I will never look at my situation except against the backdrop of the cross. In the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ, God forever convinced me that He loved me. “Father, don’t ever let me look at my life and question Your love for me. Your love for me was settled on the cross. That has never changed and will never change.” Our love relationship with the Heavenly Father sustains us through extremely difficult times.
But even as I seek to look only to Jesus you will notice how far I have to go by counting the number of times I've used the word "My" in this post. Six times I have taken back all that I have given over to God in this post alone. I still have a ways to go.
"Lord Jesus, I give you back again all that I hold dear, because You can take better care of them than I ever could!"
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